You never know how you are going to react until it happens to you. My Grandma Lorene has been sick since January. Stroke after stroke she continually worsened, until now she is just a shell of who she used to be. Just yesterday the doctor told my mom that she would not be around much longer. The nurse even asked if she had considered Hospice...How am I going to react?
My dad called last night and I had a breakdown when what I heard him say was completely fictional. Completely made up in my head. Of course once I heard what I heard, the phone went blank. When I called him back, he was asking about his car. Not telling me of other news that I didn't want to hear.
Although inevitable, I think that I am being selfish. I don't want her to go...If she is gone then she will never get better. My grandmother has always been the matriarch of the family. She stood tall and was the shoulder to lean on, the dumplings to feast on, & the joke to listen to. Now although she cannot speak, and although she hardly knows us, I don't want to let her go! I have even put off going to see her for reasons that are selfish, but it has simply been due to the difficulty of seeing her that way.
So I pray...
God, in my uncertainty and pain, give me understanding and strength to carry on. Give me the comforting words to help my mother during this rough time of transition. Help us to remember the woman my grandmother was and rejoice in all that she has made us. Help us to know that you are in control no matter how many doctors attend to her, help us to remember that we all have an appointed time. God I praise you this day for the life that she has lived. I thank you for allowing her to brighten our lives...to teach us your word...TO BE AN EXAMPLE TO LIVE BY! In this time, God I pray that you will unite our family together. God do not allow our chains to be broken. And all praise is given for all that you do! AMEN
Friday, July 31, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Our Baby
So it's a little soon to be talking about an actual baby, but we have recently gotten Charley and he is a wonderful little addition. Charley is 20 weeks old and weighs 5 pounds. He is a little shrimp, but we love him just the same. For those of you who haven't seen him, he is a miniature Yorkie, with a lot of spunk!
Since we got him about a week and a half ago, Charley has learned to Sit, Shake hands, lay down, and stay...it's the potty training that is a little bit of a challenge for him. We have had to discipline ourselves to be good parents for this dog. I think in all of this, we are learning a small bit about what it will take to be a parent. In all of the craziness, you have to organize when Charley will eat and how long you need to wait before you take him out, and how much exercise does he need? I am thankful for the responsibility that Charley is teaching us.
Just last night, Jason thought there might be something wrong because he was yawning a lot. Jason jumped into daddy mode and was trying to figure out if he had gotten hold of something while we were away from home. All this to say that Jason and I are truly blessed and are thankful for all that is going on in our lives.
Since we got him about a week and a half ago, Charley has learned to Sit, Shake hands, lay down, and stay...it's the potty training that is a little bit of a challenge for him. We have had to discipline ourselves to be good parents for this dog. I think in all of this, we are learning a small bit about what it will take to be a parent. In all of the craziness, you have to organize when Charley will eat and how long you need to wait before you take him out, and how much exercise does he need? I am thankful for the responsibility that Charley is teaching us.
Just last night, Jason thought there might be something wrong because he was yawning a lot. Jason jumped into daddy mode and was trying to figure out if he had gotten hold of something while we were away from home. All this to say that Jason and I are truly blessed and are thankful for all that is going on in our lives.
Friday, July 17, 2009
Life since the wedding!
It's definately been a roller coaster. Jason and I are learning a lot about one another, and growing to love one another even more everyday. It's all about give and take...Hard pill to swallow when you've been independent for so long. With independence each of us have learned to take care of ourselves...So wouldn't that help us to take care of each other better?
I find myself sometimes looking at him for unbelievably long amounts of time, wondering what is going through his head! I know for the females reading this blog, I probably don't want to know. I wonder sometimes if he does the same thing? If you can read men's minds, and see Jason around, let me know how it goes...LOL!
As for what has been going on in our lives, we purchased a house at the end of March in North Little Rock. It is a great house with a lot of potential. So far, we have given the kitchen/breakfast nook and master bedroom a facelift. I love these rooms and can't wait to finish some more. My Jason is quite the hard worker, and without him, our house would still look like the 70's flashback. I should also thank our families for their extensive assistance in the house! They have been wonderful! I'll try to post some before and after pics soon! You won't believe the change!
I know that on this roller coaster there will be times when we hit a sharp curve or a deep dive, but as long as we stay strapped in, we'll arrive safely! Keep us in your prayers!
I find myself sometimes looking at him for unbelievably long amounts of time, wondering what is going through his head! I know for the females reading this blog, I probably don't want to know. I wonder sometimes if he does the same thing? If you can read men's minds, and see Jason around, let me know how it goes...LOL!
As for what has been going on in our lives, we purchased a house at the end of March in North Little Rock. It is a great house with a lot of potential. So far, we have given the kitchen/breakfast nook and master bedroom a facelift. I love these rooms and can't wait to finish some more. My Jason is quite the hard worker, and without him, our house would still look like the 70's flashback. I should also thank our families for their extensive assistance in the house! They have been wonderful! I'll try to post some before and after pics soon! You won't believe the change!
I know that on this roller coaster there will be times when we hit a sharp curve or a deep dive, but as long as we stay strapped in, we'll arrive safely! Keep us in your prayers!
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